It's not enjoyable anymore.
I just can't feel the energy in it.
I feel like a slave; mistreated, unappreciated, unwanted.
Its very different from Xuan Ming being a "slave".
At least he gets something out of his job, both emotionally and tangibly.
There was the energy in the members during his and the others reign.
But now I just feel that everything has changed.
No, not changed, just gone.
Constant pressure during Dazu, inevitable torturing from L during Xiaozu.
At least the juniors are fun to be with.
But thats all.
The bond between me and this CO has been ripped apart.
It just sucks to see people who do little and get appreciated.
While I be a fucking laborer.
Work or die.
Coupled with the "significant other" issue.
I think I should just leave this CO.
I can't survive in a dead CO.
Worst come to worst, I will go overseas to study.
So as to avoid all this "middle fingered" issues.
It's really amazing how I managed to screw up my fucking 3 years in Secondary School.
Just because of 2 people.
Thanks.
I might as well be cooking their dinner for you or pushing your little wheelbarrow to the bank for you.
If you think I will continue on contributing to CO like I always do,
Go suck on a lava lamp.
For I have pride in myself.
And for you the other one,
Well, maybe we need time to understand each other. :)
So thats all for this post.
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